Unbearable Pain: A Personal Fight With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid stabs, similar to lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition often start with intense pain around one eye that lasts for three hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, severe agony around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an evil entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts propose unusual treatments for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major artery which delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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